Day 20: Breaking News

Scripture: Psalms 61:1-4

Topic: Breaking News

I failed to get a perfect picture to go with my topic today. I’m not sure if it’s because I’m just too overwhelmed with all that’s going on around me that I don’t have the strength Google search for today’s post.

My lack of enthusiasms today is mainly due to the breaking news received over the weekend which I won’t go into detail about it. However I can say that some news will leave one feeling helpless and inadequate.

I had no other place to find strength except the book I have come to depend on. And I believe it’s probably the only book of instruction, motivation, encouragement and knowledge I can ever rely on…The Holy Bible.

You see it’s one thing to have news to share, it’s another thing to find a way to break the news to the one it affects the most. Caught in between watching my husband in pain and going home to give courage to my kids with a smile and comfort. I find myself in the bedroom with mixed emotions. Reality is numbing me but the situation calls for my strength and faith.

Paging through scripture, I’m glued in the Praises by King David.

Psalm 61:1-4

O God, listen to my cry! Hear my prayer! From the ends of the earth, I cry to you for help when my heart is overwhelmed. Lead me to the towering rock of safety, for you are my safe refuge, a fortress where my enemies cannot reach me. Let me live forever in your sanctuary, safe beneath the shelter of your wings! Interlude
Psalms 61:1‭-‬4 NLT

One beautiful thing about running to God is that I don’t have to break news of my despair to Him. He already knows my heart. He has examined me, He knows me, (Psalms 139)

I’m overwhelmed yes. But I’m finding strength to face each days report under the shelter of His wings.



At his bedside…

I thought I’d cry

I thought I’d give up the fight

Would I ever be prepared?

Would I make a perfect support system?

Is my faith strong enough to withstand the toils of life?

Is this the through sickness and health moment?

Are there many more days like this?

I wonder…

Here I am.

With nothing to give

I hold my hand out

His hand reaches to mine

Our eyes locked at each other as we make a profound statement at each other’s hearts.

It was a wordless moment. But our hearts spoke.

Together we are in this.

In this we are together.

And I watched him fall asleep as I sat down beside his hospital bed. His breathing was all that remained as the sedative medication kicked in.

I know now, I’m strong and capable.


Dear; My Teenage Self

This is what I’d say to my teen self;

●You don’t owe anyone your happiness and achievements.

●Celebrate you, even if it leaves others insecure. We are all given the same number of hours in a day how they choose to use theirs shouldn’t be your problem.

Love will hurt you but you will get back up and make the most of what remains.

Sex can wait.

Its okay to lose friends they help us see our growth and maturity from one level to the next.

It’s not wrong or bad to say no. Learn to say no and dont feel guilty about it.


Soweto Uprising 1976

Liberation is not a destination but a movement. South African youth of 1976 had a mandate, a purpose, a desire. Individually no one could fulfil that mandate, purpose and desire but United they stood, they fought, they conquered.

On this day 16 June 1976 they took to the streets, each from a different school, gathered the masses and marched to Orlando Stadium where leader Tsietsi Mashinini addressed them. The movement was to fight against the use of Afrikaans as a language of instruction. What was set to be a peaceful March become the June 16 1976 massacre.

Today we, the youth of South Africa past liberation struggle are still under movement and desire to build a generation of purposely skilled young people.

Yes we eating fruits from the tree the Soweto Uprising planted, reaping a harvest we didn’t plant. But we also planting trees under the freedom charter for the next generation to reap what we plant today.

42years later we commemorate the freedom of education fighters as the fight for free education continues for the 21st century era seen by the 2016 Fees must Fall campaign.

June 16! Aluta continua ✊ Amandla! Power to the people.


Day 19: The Cracks ache

Scripture: Psalm 61: 1-4

Topic: The Cracks Ache

Life has a way of overwhelming us. Circumstances beyond our control can knock us over, hold us under, and threaten to drown us. Sometimes it feels like we haven’t yet recovered from one storm then another comes along.

After funding for my sister P* to go into initiation school of traditional healers as a family we hit a huge knock from family and friends. People didn’t hesitate to tell us how they felt about our decision and tradition – as if we asked them. But it was one season in my life where I felt my head was under water. I wasn’t broken but I cracked. And man it ached! You can read in detail about it on my post:

We can never really run from trouble. Whether self imposed or not. Trouble, trials and tests have a way of disturbing the normal routine of our lives. But that doesn’t mean we can never find our footing again. We get tossed over and over. We miss a step now and again. Wishing we could just stand steadily on solid ground for just enough time to catch a breath.

The difference in my time of surviving and now is that I have found solid ground. The storms have not ceased. In fact I’m going through double storms at the moment but though tossed. Shaken. Slightly cracked. I’m not in despair. I’m not floating. I’m on solid ground. Standing on the rock of all times.

One man who knows too well about this Rock, one I draw my self close to his books…. The king of praise and worship. David the shepherd.

David wrote:

O God, listen to my cry! Hear my prayer! From the ends of the earth, I cry to you for help when my heart is overwhelmed. Lead me to the towering rock of safety, for you are my safe refuge, a fortress where my enemies cannot reach me. Let me live forever in your sanctuary, safe beneath the shelter of your wings! Interlude
Psalms 61:1‭-‬4 NLT

In moments of confusion and waves, cry out to the one who anchors us. God is immovable. God is solid.

Just this morning I told my husband, our physical situation doesnt have to change for us to find rest and safety. We have a spiritual rock who is with us wherever we go. With everything around us swifting and shifting and is uncertain God is our solid ground.

Though I’m overwhelmed I’m not in doubt. I know my High Rock. My Shelter. My Strong Tower. Terbanacle. Under His Wings I rest and I’m safe.


Day 18: Just say Thank you

Scripture: Romans 15:13

Topic: Just say Thank you

I love compliments, everyone does but we just don’t know how to respond to a compliment without coming out prideful. So we gently turn the compliment a negative way. We say things like: “no that was bad, you could have done better than me.” Or we say: “You look beautiful too.” To be honest that’s just petty but even I do it sometimes. It’s a bad response. That’s insecurity speaking. Pride in disguise.

When offered a compliment just say Thank you! It’s your moment have it. Receive it. Embrace it. Thank you demonstrate your confidence and acknowledgement of your potential. Yes we praise God for what we can do because He made us and gave us all our abilities. But God is not an insecure God. I’m sure He’s happy to share the credit with us. He’s not going to turn you into a pillar of salt for saying thank you to a compliment.

Paul wrote:

I pray that God, the source of hope, will fill you completely with joy and peace because you trust in him. Then you will overflow with confident hope through the power of the Holy Spirit.
Romans 15:13 NLT

Note the words in bold. When we completely trust God we become confident in all we do. We show humility in its most authentic way by appreciating graciously a compliment. We are not being boastful. Saying thank you doesn’t mean I’m not praising and thanking God for the ability He has given me to be best in all I do. My humility doesn’t stop or change my praise. I could be saying thank you with my mouth to someone and praising God in spirit at that very moment.

Humility is not measured by how I give my answer to a compliment. My level of humility is between me and God, it’s nobody else’s business. When I become boastful God will know and call me to order.

Take a compliment. It’s not a sin.