What is behind me is nothing worth holding on to compared to what awaits ahead of me –
My past never seemed like a mirror of character molding. My past has always been a shameful ghost that never in my life did I ever think I’d look back and see lessons learned, courage built, maturity nursed and best of all salvation deemed.
When you know the worst about yourself it becomes hard for you to see the best you can become. That’s the danger of living our present life in the reminder of the past.
When we dare drag the past into the present we are unconsciously inviting our failed,hurt,broken and insecure selves in the light of what is meant to liberate us but only cages us.
I had so much anger, hurt, resentment,failed attempts, unanswered questions, insecurities…the list was endless. From losing a father I have no memory of, being molested, attempted rape, teenage tendencies of alcohol and sex, failed relationships, attempted suicide,abusive relationships….
It was not until I confronted my brokenness that I was able to confront my past and forgive the old version of me in order to set free the new me. I could no longer punish the new saved, sanctified,forgiven,washed by the blood of Jesus, marinaded in His glorious presence and spirit filled version of me with the sins of my past.
God used the ghosts of my past to mirror the character of my present. I had to see what I was in order to understand who I am becoming.
I am a child of God. A precious possession. More precious than rubies. I am fearfully and wonderfully made. In His image I was created. For His glory I was made.